Journey Into Motherhood

Everything has changed and yet, I am more me than I’ve ever been.

-Iain Thomas

The day my baby boy was born is a day that I had dreamed about for years. I couldn’t wait to claim the esteemed title of Mother, joining the ranks of so many women that I admire and look up to. When the day finally came and I was able to hold my sweet boy in my arms, I can honestly say that it was one of the happiest moments of my life.

The weeks that followed were filled with pure joy, near debilitating stress, and very little sleep. I thought I knew what to expect when it came to handling a newborn. After all, I am a pediatric physician assistant. I tell other people how to take care of their children every day. But with my own child, I found myself feeling inadequate on so many levels. I struggled with breast feeding, my baby wasn’t gaining weight, and when we supplemented with formula he became extremely constipated. I felt like such a failure.

During late night feedings, while I was desperately trying to get my baby to latch, or pumping what little breast milk I had, I would often search the blogisphere for other women who were going through the same thing I was. I was looking for encouragement, advice, and just someone who understood. Reading about the experiences of others was so helpful. It gave me validation for my feelings, and it motivated me to keep trying my best.

Fast forward 10 months, and my boy is healthy and happy. I look back on that newborn period with fondness now, knowing that all the stress and anxiety I experienced as a new mom was but a moment in my journey. I have experienced new stresses and problems along the way, but every day I am discovering that I am strong and capable. I can do this, and so can you.

I want to build a community that celebrates each other’s successes, offers words of kind advice and motivation, and helps each other to learn and grow into the people we always dreamed of being. Feel free to follow along in my journey of motherhood, being a working mom, balancing wellness, sanity, and so much more. Welcome aboard.